Excruciating Agony: My Fight With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often begin with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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